(Left the juggling to the circus.
Its so easy to stay faithful when ur inlove.
I never knew.
News to me.
The Black Rachel Maddow.)
Im in the brush.
the green is too lush,
Tryna remember what U look like.
Still fantasize about when Ur sex sounds spiked.
and then U cum.
And then U leave.
Yea.. and im alone again.
U never left money on my night stand.
But U did pay for all the meals.
I put my whole fist in U..
and U swallowed up my veins.
Took every inch of my wood.
Splinter.
I used to live in U..
Wouldve changed my skin if Ud ask.
I was so lost.
Still not found.
Im on a mission to Pluto.
To freedom.
Then Onto Venus.
All the love u said u had for me.
Left in bottles floating off the bank of Coyote Point.
My body twist like Exercistic shit.
When U left.
Withdraws to my Being.
In pools of tar.. Molasses.
Come back.
Why wasnt it me?
Her.
U chose Her..
And who will love me?
Who wants to love me?
Im not lovable..
Can barely receive hugs.
and compliments.
Nope. I dont believe.
But I nod like I do.
I practiced.
Know my angles like math formulas.
Pupils have to be wounds.
Stings too much when the tears come.
So they dont come.
Often.
U smell my familiar in the wind because I was near U.
Not a stalker.
Jus in the vicinity.
Searching for my virginity.
Have U seen Hyman?
Grab Ur torches and Ur pitch forks.
Cuz I should get back what was taken.
I know I was mistaken.
Identity issues.
They say I have one of those pussys.
God wouldnt let this happen.
Paperwork got all fucked up.
Maybe she was younger than me.
Well. Baby girl U lucked up.
I took it All..
Still Am.
Trying to find ways to be ravished.
They wont come near me.
Pheromones.
Bleach wont help.
Tomatoes I tried em..
And.
I Still.
Stink.
Just wana be loved.
